AMERICAN | ESKIMO

It’s just the most amazing thing to love a dog, isn’t it? It makes our relationships with people seem as boring as a bowl of oatmeal.

– John Grogan

I am proud to say that I am the person that will cancel dinner reservations to pick up a stray dog on the side of the road. I have two sweet (and I mean extremely sweet) little babies – both under ten pounds, and both have the whole world in their tiny eyes.

On Friday, I was leaving the house to attend my dinner plans. There was an American Eskimo hopping on three legs on my driveway. I escorted him safely into my heated garage and laid on a huge comforter with him, encouraging him to eat. I was a stranger to him, yet he laid his head on my lap and looked into my eyes.

As I pet his fur, I realized how matted he was. His leg looked as if it was an old injury (perhaps a break) that was never taken care of. His eyes and nose showed signs of aging.

I rubbed his cheeks and told him, “You’re safe here.” He just continued peering into my eyes. I realized how incredible it was that he was so trusting, regardless of the hardships he had clearly been through.

I spent a few hours with him until we found his home. Had we not found his home, my house of two babies would have turned into three. Though I couldn’t make my dinner plans, my Friday night taught me an important lesson: the hurt you feel should never stop you from seeing the light in the world. 

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Sixteen year old me

Dear sixteen year old C,

“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing chances, but when you look back, everything is different…” – C.S. Lewis

  • You know that cute boy that made you cry today? He won’t compare to some of the men you’ll meet in your twenties.
  • Everyone will tell you that it’s a mistake to run from your problems. It isn’t. Follow your heart and run if you need to. Just make sure to return home.
  • You will love a few times – the first cut is the deepest, so just enjoy the ride.
  • Always remember that just because you meet a great man, doesn’t mean he is necessarily great for you.
  • Set your standards of how you expect to be treated, and be a hardass with enforcing them.
  • Set your standards of how you expect yourself to treat others. Be a hardass and enforce those too. 
  • Not everyone will see the world the same way you do. Be tolerant of them.
  • Don’t give into peer-pressure. Feel proud when you say you’ve never done drugs.
  • Which leads me to my next point…just don’t do drugs.
  • You can show your love by letting people go.
  • You will hurt one day. I don’t know when it’ll pass, but it will. Just keep breathing.
  • Don’t be in a rush to find love, but please, don’t be afraid of it.
  • Nothing is worth numbing you. No job, no man, no friend.
  • Don’t let your anger eat you alive forever.
  • Next time your mother does something to make you so mad, just let it go. Eventually, you’ll catch yourself doing the same things one day. I don’t say this to scare you, but to excite you. It is a privilege to be half the woman your mother was.
  • Please, please, dear girl. Hold your family tight.
  • Death is scary. When the day comes, hold your mother’s hand when it’s her time. You’ll never regret that.
  • You can be it all. You can be the dark girl, and the lightest one. When you’re feeling dark, use your voice to let other people be the light for you.

You will make it through, C.

Love always,

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